The end of my 6 week maternity leave is fast approaching and the thought of it has me going through an overwhelming amount of emotions.
One part of me can’t wait to get back on a schedule and into the routine of going back to work. The other part can’t grasp the fact that I have to leave my little 6 week old baby girl to go off for 9 hours a day without her while she is still so dependent on me. Before her, I already felt as if the days were too short for me to accomplish everything I wanted to and now I feel like I will never see her!
I know that there are so many working mothers out there who have had to go through the same thing and I just get so worked up about the fact that this society has made it acceptable for mothers to have to leave their child when they are still so young. Six weeks may sound like a long time… but I can tell you right now that 6 weeks after having a baby feels like no time at all.
And I never saw myself as being a stay at home mom. I always knew I wanted to work, I mean I’ve come so far in my career and found a job that I love which was always my goal, of course. But thinking back on how I grew up with a stay at home mom makes me wonder what it would be like.
I realize that even though going back to work is a hard thing to think about right now, I know that I am so lucky to have Brett here to continue to take care of her for a few more weeks, instead of having to leave her with a babysitter or at a daycare with a stranger. It definitely has made me feel so much more comfortable with getting back into the groove of things and heading to work with my mind at ease, knowing he is home with her.
Being the neurotic schedule-maker that I am, thank goodness I have Brett to put my mind ease. Every time I go into some emotional spiral about how and when and what our new schedule is going to be like and how am I going to manage being at work and blah blah blah, I have Brett there to calm me down. He’s always there to let me know how lucky we are to have each other, that so many people go through this same thing and that everything is going to be just fine.
While discussing my feelings with Brett and beginning this blog post, almost simultaneously I came across the quote at the beginning of this post. It really spoke to me in this particular situation and I wanted to keep it as a reminder to not get so worked up about things before they even start. It is so easy for me to get wrapped up in something before I even dive in, that it causes more stress and worry than was needed.
And I want to put this quote out there for others going through situations, because it’s true with many moments that we experience in life. So, I say this to those reading and to myself, that you can do anything you put your mind to… the hardest and scariest part is beginning to do it.